Monday 11 July 2016

Feeling meh!

Well, a short one this week, I could turn this into a knob gag and claim it's always a short one (Wahey) but I won't.

The ed fest is drawing closer and I'm not excited, I should be but I'm not.

I'm owed a few quid from promoters, I feel like its a battle for work, I feel like I'm trying to oversell my capabilities despite simultaneously believing I'm more than capable of performing to a high standard.

So I reckon I'm feeling a bit flat at the moment, probably because I've been writing more and performing the older stuff with less vigor, I'm fed up of chasing up owed fees and I actually feel like the whole doing a proper day job thing should replace this trying to be funny malarkey.

Thing is, these flat feelings, these are the ones that act as a cull for so many people, I think I'm just going to power forward, I won't feel flat this time next week so just endure for a while!

It's probably likely everyone has the ol, feeling meh! 
I'm feeling meh about writing this but opted to go ahead and do it! It's just about cracking on, I'm just convincing myself now, although I'm certain some of my readership have been here so it's all good.

Edinburgh is filling me with excitement yet... I'm certain that will change... Bloody better had, I've put so much into the writing it's almost not me!!

J x

Monday 4 July 2016

Thick racists!

I didn't blog last week in the wake of brexit and mixed emotions about my path, the path of the country and how they both link.

I've had some time off, from everything really as I take stock of the world around me and I think back to my recent blog in which I stated I have no stance for the stage and just want to be funny.

Well I do offstage, and brexit had made me think a lot about how I should vocalise that given that calling people thick and racist was the order of the day initially from the remainers.

That was just the emotional side of people's thinking lashing out, yes I don't think they thought their vote through some of them, yes there is a lack of intelligence in some of the reasons behind voting leave, I mean one bloke in Barnsley was interviewed and claimed its because of the Muslims!! What the fuck does he actually think the EU is?? Really?

There are still people saying they voted out because they don't want EU making all our laws, I mean really???

But some genuinely have been unheard all their lives, they go to work, they go home.

They feel like they aren't being listened to and they get all their info from the media , they innocently agree with a far right groups post about crime stats maybe because they feel worried for their family or because they are spoonfed hate from some news outlets.

Then what? Then they get called cunt by lefty types that would rather claim moral superiority than engage with someone.

I'm a lefty type, I love that lefty types care about others, that they have strong views against discrimination and they fight for those ideals, it's bloody wonderful.

But is everyone who's been derided as thick, racist, a lost cause for friendship really that bad?

Some people spent so much time patting themselves on the back about how moral they are they posted about how UKIP supporters should "unfriend themselves" because they are scum. 

They closed their bubble and they only allowed the views of their peers to infiltrate their eyes and brains.

But in turn they isolated those people from the stories they shared, the news articles that may have changed some minds, the facts about Farage that supporters don't see.

Also not all brexiters are UKIP followers, clearly as UKIP don't have 17 million supporters and again these are people who maybe viewed themselves as non political and were viewed by many of the supposed intellectually superior as a waste of time... Well that arrogant pig fucker gave them a chance to be heard and they fucking took it!!

Then friends, family, neighbours all began falling out, the country became divided and bitter.... In one referendum Cameron, Farage, Boris, Gove and all the other idiots did something 2 world wars couldn't, they divided Britian, they sent the country into some kind of mental meltdown, 

Scotland had a referendum to leave the UK and were warned they would have to leave the EU if they did then we in England took them out anyway so they should be allowed their 2nd referendum and Northern Ireland who relied on EU support in their peace process (something I'm not overly familiar with so won't go on about) 
They have had some dark days and things seemed so much better now in 2016 for them, but they wanted to remain in the EU and so there may be a division there.

There is so much shit going on in the world and I feel sad because of the way this referendum decision may effect me... Whatever happens, recession, prosperity, war, utopia? We aren't sure what's next really but we have to get on with our lives and take stock of our own role in what's happened rather than finger point as well as do all we can to make the improvement or at least be heard, without hating others and driving them to decisions that crates nothing but further division, we are better than that, it's time to show it I believe.

Maybe next week I'll return to mumbling shite about how gigs went!

J x